Does God abandon us to suffer after we come into being on Earth? I think as human beings we are not able to accept this fact generation after generation. So, our minds are ceaselessly working to disprove the fact that we are destined to suffer. We invent new faiths; get reformed for sometime, kill people in the name of faith, fight with others to maintain the "purity" of faith. We invent ideologies, technologies to lead a better life.  

Like most, I had a sheltered childhood - filled with certainties, affection and care. When I got into college - I became aware of the cruelties that go on around us every day. I was attracted to an ideology that promised to create a society of human beings free of all frailties that make us cruel to each other. I soon outgrew that illusion. But my internal struggle has taken a toll of my creative energy.."to be or not to be", "taboo vs temptation", "hate vs should love all".............

Some of the internal struggles have left me pyschologically scarred. Why do I have to fight the "evil" within? Did I come into this world programmed with these evil tendencies?

I can escape .... and there are many "paths" available. But the essential suffering cannot be escaped for long time.

Did I make sense so far?